Luisa Bradshaw-White has offered fans an update on her life four years after she left EastEnders.
The Tina Carter star took to social media to inform her followers that she is ‘finding it hard to post’ these days because the experiences she’s having ‘can’t fit into words’.
‘My ability to feel just keeps expanding,’ she wrote in a powerful post, shared to her Instagram profile. ‘And when I say this I mean feeling ALL of it!
‘I am nearly always cracked wide open at the beauty of life….. and the pain,’ she added, branding it ‘devastatingly beautiful’.
The former Holby City star said that she cries ‘every day’.
‘I can’t stop,’ she said. ‘There are so many similarities to when I was diagnosed bipolar years ago and then sadly heavily medicated. It makes me question the diagnosis and DEFINITELY question the medication but that is another story and another timeline.’
Luisa reflected on how people are often made to ‘fear’ their feelings and emotions but reiterated that she feels ‘so grounded and without fear’.
‘I am able to hold these intense energies and frequencies. I love myself so fiercely in this intense energy.
‘I cry to move the energy. I cry because life is so beautiful. I cry because I get to be this free, This sovereign in this lifetime. I cry because I am not alone, even when there are no human souls around me I have everything in nature holding me. I cry because it gets to be THIS GOOD TO FEEL EVERYTHING.
‘It has never felt so good and so safe to feel so much.
‘Whatever you are experiencing in this portal we are in… surrender. And love.’
The powerful words received praise from Luisa’s former EastEnders co-stars, with Linda Carter star Kellie Bright writing: ‘The wisest of words from my beautiful Lulu.’
Emma Barton, who portrays Honey Mitchell, responded with three heart emojis while Denise Fox icon Diane Parish said: ‘Beautifully scribed Lu. Loved reading that.’
Luisa left EastEnders in late 2020. Her exit storyline proved controversial after popular character Tina was killed at the hands of serial killer Gray Atkins (Toby-Alexander Smith).
Her body was not discovered until February 2022, with Phil Mitchell being the one to notify the police.
