April Scatters Her Baby’s Ashes | Emmerdale

April finds herself facing one of the hardest moments of her life—letting go of Rebecca. The ashes are ready for collection, but emotions run high as she struggles with what comes next. While her loved ones grapple with guilt over the private funeral, April makes it clear she wanted no part in it. Still, doubts linger, and the weight of the loss is suffocating.

Rona worries about saying the wrong thing, knowing how fragile the situation is. When April overhears the conversation, tensions rise. She’s exhausted from the pressure and the expectation that she should want closure. While her family tries to offer options—a chance for a private ceremony, a final goodbye—April resists. She doesn’t want to face the pain head-on.

Despite her insistence, a deep conflict stirs within her. When she finally arrives to collect the ashes, she hesitates, standing outside for what feels like an eternity. The reality of the moment is too much. Doubts creep in—how can someone like her be expected to carry such a burden? She feels unworthy, incapable of honoring Rebecca’s memory in the way she deserves.

Her father sees her pain and reassures her—there is no right or wrong way to grieve. No matter her age, no one is ever truly prepared for this kind of loss. She has already shown strength beyond measure, and this moment is no different.

At the stream, April lets herself feel the weight of it all. She struggles to say goodbye to someone she never got the chance to say hello to. Tears fall as she whispers an apology, a confession of her deepest fears—that she wasn’t good enough, that she somehow failed Rebecca. But she’s reminded that love isn’t about perfection. She is not to blame.

As she scatters Rebecca’s ashes into the water, she hopes her mother is there, watching over the baby she never got to meet. A promise is made—Rebecca will never be forgotten. The moment is bittersweet, and April wonders what comes next. There’s no easy answer, but for now, it’s enough to have said goodbye.

Back home, she insists she’s fine, though her father knows better. It’s okay not to be okay. As the weight of grief lingers, April’s journey is far from over. But in that quiet moment by the stream, she takes her first step toward healing.